mindnoting:

I think the next chapter of my life is going to be in Napa valley if I can get a wage higher than 16.5

Lmao so yeah the new chapter in Napa valley started and I’m starting in single bc my ex got terrified of commitment (I think to his new permanent job that’s locking him in the county instead of me) but you know “life experience” is what he’s trying to find (aka seeing what other relationships are like lmao but “he didn’t say that”)

Anyway im actually way better than I thought I’d be tbh

Mostly because we had so many talks about break ups before I left

Still not great but once I get into the resentment stage I know I’m going through the order

Right now I’m like wow he’s so great and we’re good but also turned anorexic and bulimic out of nowhere

Strange because Ive NEVER done that? Food has always been my therapy. But this pain has me literally not eating (and now that I tried to eat a burrito it sickened me and I force threw it up)

I’m a psychology graduate and don’t actually understand what the fuck that’s about… so if anyone wants to pitch in thanks

I think the next chapter of my life is going to be in Napa valley if I can get a wage higher than 16.5

theweirdwideweb:

Wow it’s been a while

I got a lot better but also I just graduated college so back to feeling that endless pit of despair but I know everyone else is too so :)))) I’m chillin

Gonna be ok with being lost until I’m not

Gotta stop comparing myself to high school people I once knew who I perceive as doing better than me

And definitely need to stop worrying about not appearing good enough by others standards because dude

I’ve got it good

Damn I feel like an idiot

You don’t shoot someone down when they’re not normally comfortable being high. Some people get paranoid when they’re stoned. If they’re comfortable around you and you shoot them down, they’ll close off.

sixpenceee:

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I want a quick, painless, soon end. I’m tired. I’m depressed and am nothing but a burden.

I don’t have anyone. I don’t have anything to feel proud of. This is so out of character and I can’t handle myself